hells-edge

I know i'm a month late on this but thanks everyone who wished me a happy birthday, I really appreciate it, also I'll get back to drawing again eventually lol

So basically what happened is about 6 months ago I had some kind of weird mental art breakdown  which I think was caused by a combination of me pushing myself way too hard, and all the shit that was going on in my life at the time. It had affected me so bad that it felt like I completely forgot how to draw(still sort of feel that way a little bit), it felt like I completely forgot everything I learned and this went on for a very long while making me more and more depressed as it went on, during a major portion of that time I just completely gave up on drawing what so ever just because I was afraid that it would make me more upset to even try anymore. Finally though I got tired of feeling that way and pushed myself to draw just a couple of weeks ago and now i'm starting to finally feel better after all this time. Honestly i'm glad to be back to doing what I love. definitely not going to let what happened to me ever happen again that's for sure. Well anyways that about sums up why I was away for so long, i'll probably end up posting some art here in the next week or so depending on what goes on, so look out for that.

just wanted to say that I am somewhat back finally, finally got out of a really rough 6 month depression and back to drawing once again, it's really late and i'm super exhausted, i'l make another journal going into all the details tomorrow 

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Started my ask blog back up once again, also posted something splatoon related on my art blog yesterday that I can't post here because of reasons. So if you want to check that out you can go here hells-edge.tumblr.com/. Also sorry about the last journal, sometimes I get upset randomly for no reason. I feel much better now by the way.

I have just been feeling really lonely lately. These last 7 or 8 months have been pretty hard on me. I used to chat with so many people but I stopped doing that and started focusing more on my art and other things and now i'm just completely upset because of it. I feel so awful about all the friends I stopped talking to on here because I got busy with other stupid crap. I want to be the active person I used to be on here, and other sites. If any of my old friends see this just know that i'm sorry for not talking to you as much as I should have, I became pretty antisocial over the last year or so and I apologize. My whole plan for this year was to post tons of artwork,socialize, and make new friends and it seems like I screwed that up. I haven't chatted that much with anyone on here or any other site for like two years now, and I think it's finally gotten to me. I just feel so lonely and upset right now. Hopefully I can get out of this mood I'm in, and start being a ton more active like I used to be.